Sometimes I fail.
Sometimes, in trying to help someone, I get twisted and mixed up. I don't know what to say or do, so I do nothing. Others, I make an attempt, and even as I am saying or doing something that I think will help the situation... Inside my head, I am scrambling for balance while screaming, "Oh no, what was I thinking? That was reallllly stupid!"
Sometimes I fail.
Sometimes my husband simply needs my focus and attention, but I am too busy paying attention to everything else to see what he needs. My inattention often leads to conflict. Conflict leads to a whole host of negative things... The biggest of which is the enemy joining me in my head and turning it into his playground. If I give in to his antics, I'm gonna fail every time.
Sometimes I fail.
Sometimes I forget to give grace and mercy, and to do all things in love. I'm trying to teach tweens a hard lesson at a hard age, in a world that is seriously lacking in these things. Sometimes, in trying to get through to them, I do the very things I want them to stop doing. I raise my voice and yell to get above the noise, while inside my head, I'm thinking, "Dang it, I don't want to do this. Why do I DO this?"
Sometimes I fail.
Sometimes I am too focused on the negativity of the world, and less on the positivity of His presence in it. Yes, things are awful right now, but none of it is a surprise to Him. Plus, He's already at work in the situation. Most of all, I have found that in the midst of chaos, you find Him, waiting, offering peace. He knows what we need when things are falling down around us, and what we need more than anything is Him. He comforts and quiets my soul when the world is spinning out of control.
Sometimes I fail.
Sometimes I forget that in all my failures, He still loves me. He still walks with me through it. He may not keep me from experiencing the consequences of my choices, but He will guide me through it lovingly. I fail Him often, but He never fails me. Not once. Even if I cannot see the good in a situation, He can and does. It may not look to you or me right now as good, but He sees things we can't see, and knows things we don't know. He knows what will come when we trust Him. He knows He loves us, and He is just waiting on us to realize that. He knows we are His.
Sometimes I fail, but He never does.
